My husband, Glenn, and I are at a crossroads. We’re praying about “A Visit With St. Paul,” as he wrote in the last blog. We’ve written a hopefully inspiring and humorous movie about St. Kateri Tekakwitha, re-named, “Better Mistakes” (see “Kateri’s Path” tab above). We thought we might sell it this summer but it turned out to be a false start. Naturally, this was quite disappointing.
I’ve also been substitute teaching the past fourteen years, studying St. John Paul II”s Theology of the Body, spending time with my family, and supporting Glenn in his one-man show of St. Paul. But lately, I find myself wondering, “What am I doing?” and “Who am I?”
My college roommate, Nicole, said she wanted to be a teacher since she was a child. Some people know they’re called to be nurses, mechanics, priests or nuns from an early age. God hasn’t worked with me this way. I enjoy working with youth, teaching and writing and I’ve had many jobs that have included these skills.
Our friend, Paul, stopped by recently. He shared about some health concerns so we offered to pay for a massage. I told him that I was feeling a bit aimless and it would make me feel good to do something for him – partly, this was an “angle” because I knew it would help him accept the gift more easily. We told him about our movie and other parts of our life that seem to be on hold. He responded, “You two are such great pray-ers! That’s so important.”
Thank you, Paul, because I needed to hear that! Part of my identity does get caught up in what I’m doing or how life seems to be going. But deep down, I know that my deepest identity is as a child of God. And spending time with our Father, our Abba, our Daddy, and Jesus, our best friend and Savior is the most important thing that I can do and be.
Last winter, I was going through a stressful time and feeling anxious. I prayed each morning…
“I am a daughter of the living God and a disciple of the Lord Jesus Christ.”
What peace this gave me! Satan was telling me that I was bad, worthless… and other such lies. God showed me my deepest identity. Through the prophet, we are reminded;
“You are precious in God’s eyes.” — Isaiah 43:4
This link below, to a beautiful video by the musician/composer, John Michal Talbot will help make you aware of your deepest identity;